Wed. morn... at the foot of a marathon (one step at a time?)

Yoga and core went well today.

My right leg is way way tighter and knotted up than my left let- i'm going to get another massage.

i'm getting nervous!!!! BAHHH!!!

that's it

Well... not quite... i'm adding from an edit post.

I'm really nervous about this marathon. i drove the course on monday and just feel humbled and respect for this great race. to motivate myself, i've just popped in the ironman video from carolyn... as a testimony of my own inspriation and humility, i just burst into tears... and i can't quite place it right now what this emotion is.... i remember a christian talking about the humility of being at the feet of his god, and being able - in some supernatural way -- to sense the greatness and respect and honour, as well as wanting to maintain that strong yet vulnerable faith in yourself as a human who can reflect that same goodness. Well, not to dishonour god, but i fee like i'm at the feet of this race and i'm not so much wavering in personal faith, but rather i've got this fear for the unknown.

from here on in, i need to believe. strongly believe in myself.