emo' yoga and finally its raining, and i'm not going to run

i decided this morning to stay in. my quad's are a bit stiff from yesterday's sprints.... i gather, i don't know what else would do this. i wonder if i drank enough water. it feels like whenever i turn around, i drink another pint of water. i'm sure that i drank 8 pints, at least, of water yesterday.

i stretched and did my excercises from physio to a fun disco cd made by a student. (you drive me cr-A-zeh... beat beat beat) i've resolved to listen to fun music until the marathon. there has been lots of Over the Rhine and Natalie Merchant- but enough of the tear jerkers.

foods going well. i'm taking more maca and chlorella religiously, and will be going out to dinner tonight... i wonder what i should be eating. on Saturday i want to eat a lime tofu curry from the Thrive book.


Yesterday night i went to yoga... with the expectation of having Lise's typical relaxing easy-going poses... but she was all about the strength training and balance. i just felt like i wasn't there- i thought it would be a bad idea to work at building new muscles and so i cried. oh goodness! what an emotional week! I just found everything hard throughout, i guess i just needed to release again, the weirdest times. while i just wanted to leave, i pushed through and got 'er done. There's 2 ultra fit women in the class- one of them i'm sure is semi-elite runner/ triathlete - and watching them so strong and capable got me. Damn comparison flaw of mine. i think that made me briefly question my strength. bah! at the same time i was thinking that i will be right up there with them come April next year.

I got a really really kind and motivating email from Tara last night... she ran into me while i was finishing a long run- she says that i look good. i 've been trying to visualize my run on sunday, and i just want to convince myself that it will be as free and easy as my long 30 km runs into Arbutus Ridge iwth the SunRise... but with my yucky tight leg, i'm feeling too twisted to be convinced.

Hence the massage appointment tonight.

BAHHH!!! I'm sooo excited! Ready to run- regardless of whether i can visualize the swift running technique.

hasta luego
aynsley
c'est tous.